Maybe the reason we don’t do more in our community as a church is because we can’t sustain it. Imagine how much worse of someone who has been rejected all their lives will be if we don’t follow through on our commitment.
I think that maybe God doesn’t advance us to the next level because we haven’t proved ourselves worthy or committed. You know like in a video game when you stick at the level your on and push forward your rewarded with the prize, more commitment.
This week I have been thinking about other religions. The ones that seem to always be knocking on your door or the ones out there feeding people. If you believe what I believe, those people are doing all that they are doing in their own strength. No help from divine sources, no spiritual energy and they seem to still be getting way more done than me or most of the Christians I know. I don’t have a point that’s just a statement.
I’m not happy where I’m at! There you have it the truth. I don’t even know what I want or where I want to be in 5 years. I feel like I just need to push harder for the sake of pushing harder. Maybe it comes from being a creative person, it’s always an uphill battle, a passionate slog that leads to creation. Songs, photos, sketches, it’s being progressive that’s important.
Go forward move ahead whip it good.
Corex

The best thing about going to a church service is that I can sit here and listen and feel convicted buy the sermon and want to change but I can walk out of the building and keep on sinning because people won’t ask me about it. It all comes back to the whole transparency thing. No one asks me to raise my hand infront of people to admit my sin, no one checks our download folder or asks us if we got angry. Because of politeness because of fear of stepping on someones toes. I have to say I don’t agree with the kind of social grace that causes separation and isolation.

I’ve spent the last six years in a church that doesn’t cater to me.
A strange thing to say I know, because I’m totally surrounded by people who love me like family, my pastor is one of the greatest men I have ever met, all my friends are creative and strong, these amongst other things are what I really have been searching for all my life.
Coming from a family that are nice people but disfunctional, I chased many things to fill the void and along the way God has been slowly revolutionizing my thinking about family and people and the meaning of life.
The answer to life the universe be everything! Not 42. Is relationship.
I don’t like the music, we meet in a gym, most people aren’t like me, we only have a morning service (I hate getting up in the morning), the sound gear is terrible, there’s not a home group for creative, Da Vinci type thinkers who like nirvana and nine inch nails, and drink green tea while smoking a pipe. But who cares!

We the Church have some universal prejudices. One in my culture is plastic surgery.
How different is covering up the truth about our skin from the covering up of our sin or even just the truth about who I really am?
It’s totally crazy to me that the only group of people that I should be able to be honest with are it seems the best at being dishonest! Why aren’t we as disgusted by our lack of transparency as we are at the vanity of plastic skin, to be honest it doesn’t compute for me, the ones and Zeros on my brain do not have a pattern for this kind of thinking. It’s totally bizarre!
The very key to a fulfilled life is connection to other people, how can I have that when nobody knows the truth about me? How can people trust you when you hold all the ammunition which is what happens when you know all about someone else and they know nothing of the truth about you? Or even worse we are all just hiding behind storefronts that say “Lovely biscuits” on the outside but on the inside there are some sweet things but all kinds of other stuff not so nice, no one really ever knows the truth.
I’ve come to a point in life where I realize that the best way to see yourself is reflected in Jesus and His people, like it says in the bible “iron sharpens iron”.
So what I’m saying is expose the metal so we can all sharpen each other.

corey